"Yahweh,You know me…" (Psalm 138/139)
I entered into this psalm, which is always a message of self-awareness. I wrote this after an instruction during our retreat.
Yahweh, you know me. God knows me! I felt that line very much! Amazing and overwhelming realization! Everything of me is known by God. Nothing is hidden in my life without Him knowing. It is amazing to realize this though! God of course, has created me in His own image and likeness; therefore, He called me for a partnership. He called me into a relationship. He has taken that initiative of our closeness. My being a Comboni Missionary is not just my own desire. God desired that one for me, that I may follow Him in a special way.
I was also filled with awe; I sat down silently, realizing that God is interested in my being Raul, not anybody else. Therefore, I should not live in pretensions, but to admire and to be grateful of my uniqueness. Being that child of God, I should be aware too of His parental guidance, because He searches for me, looks after me. I am that child Raul, who is forgiven, loved and has grown up in a relationship. Therefore, my life should always be a life of self-giving and self-donation.
I looked back in the past, in my journey up to now, so many feelings of pains, failures and tears. I realized that somehow, even in a supportive and loving family, I am a wounded being, but I share with the wounds of the world; and at times, I don’t have time to look after of my own. Now is the moment, the time for prayer and silence, to open my wounds and to allow the Lord to attend to them and heal them.
In the same way, there were also a lot of chances in my life that I have missed. There were privileges that would have been mine, but since I did not take them into deep consideration, they just slipped away, not aware of their goodness to me.
Now, I am claiming them back. In my prayers, I have to own them as if they happened in my life. God is there to help me. It is God’s purpose that I am alive, so that I may work out what I have missed in my life. Such was God’s purpose. He takes pleasure in me, despite of my brokenness and littleness.
I am that little David, hidden probably, yet God searched for me; and when He found me, He held me tight so that I may not slip away. He hedged me round with His loving arms. Therefore, I thank the Lord for what I am. He is the actor of the journey, and He is acting through me.
Showing posts with label God's favor. Show all posts
Showing posts with label God's favor. Show all posts
Monday, 21 February 2011
Tuesday, 30 November 2010
Annunciation
Rejoice! You enjoy God’s favor! (Luke 1:26-38)
Just reflecting at this line, it carries already a deep meaning in my life. I look at myself, in my missionary vocation, my soul is favored by God! I am enjoying God’s favor! Christ is with me, as it was also announced to Mary by the Angel Gabriel.
This thought should disturb us, children of God. Mary was disturbed, she was a bit confused. The angel came as a man, and for their tradition, for a man to come and chat with a woman was a taboo. Probably, she had that idea too.
Mary was disturbed because she did not know what to say. But the angel comforted her. “Do not be afraid…” We should not be afraid too. We should be confident of what the Lord can do in our lives. We are favored by Him. Our vocation is beyond natural! It is supernatural! The Holy Spirit is in our missionary journey.
Mary was strengthened when she heard about what happened to Elizabeth. A miracle is happening in her cousin’s life. She had to rush to see her. At the same time, a miracle is happening not only to our lives, but also to our peoples’ lives.
With Mary and Elizabeth, there was supernatural intervention of God; a young woman will conceive without a man in her life, she will become the Mother of the Lord. An old woman Elizabeth, barren and unable to bear a child is six-month pregnant. These are beyond human understanding. Only God knows.
A miracle is also happening in our lives, we said ‘yes’ and we are sent for the missions, beyond human understanding, but we do things among normal lives of people in the villages.
The miraculous events in our lives should lead us to humility. They all happened according to what Mary has said: “Let it be done to me according to your word
Just reflecting at this line, it carries already a deep meaning in my life. I look at myself, in my missionary vocation, my soul is favored by God! I am enjoying God’s favor! Christ is with me, as it was also announced to Mary by the Angel Gabriel.
This thought should disturb us, children of God. Mary was disturbed, she was a bit confused. The angel came as a man, and for their tradition, for a man to come and chat with a woman was a taboo. Probably, she had that idea too.
Mary was disturbed because she did not know what to say. But the angel comforted her. “Do not be afraid…” We should not be afraid too. We should be confident of what the Lord can do in our lives. We are favored by Him. Our vocation is beyond natural! It is supernatural! The Holy Spirit is in our missionary journey.
Mary was strengthened when she heard about what happened to Elizabeth. A miracle is happening in her cousin’s life. She had to rush to see her. At the same time, a miracle is happening not only to our lives, but also to our peoples’ lives.
With Mary and Elizabeth, there was supernatural intervention of God; a young woman will conceive without a man in her life, she will become the Mother of the Lord. An old woman Elizabeth, barren and unable to bear a child is six-month pregnant. These are beyond human understanding. Only God knows.
A miracle is also happening in our lives, we said ‘yes’ and we are sent for the missions, beyond human understanding, but we do things among normal lives of people in the villages.
The miraculous events in our lives should lead us to humility. They all happened according to what Mary has said: “Let it be done to me according to your word
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